Then i won't be alone

Theres a song

stuck in my damn head

i sing it every day

but so softly nobody hears

not even me.



You see...

It's a song of unspoken words

played out by my actions

every single god damned day



who am i??

whyh am i here??

All i can cry

is a single fucking tear



unable to express myself clearly

in human standard word

spoken in the universal language of attitude and fear

i don't want to cry more than a tear



I have been wrong

i have been down

i have found comfort

comfort unlike any other



dont judge me

on an outside appearance and standard

judge me by my inside

my personality, emotions who or what i am, what i REALLY am



don't hate me if you dont know me

not a lot of people really dont

i'm scared to lose what i have gainedin the past four years

the road was long and tough and i failed once or twice on the way, but it got me to where i am today.



which is why i'm writing

to let everyone know

who i really am

can you guess?

If i gave you a description, could you find out my secret?

it isnt a full description

could you narrow me down?

can you classify me?



I'm 5'9¾

i'm not thin, nor am i fat

i'm really nice

and some say i'm sweet too



u have two arms

and two legs

two hands

two feet



i have brown hair

its kind of long too

i have brown eyes

and good teeth



now you have sort of a description

can you guess my dirty secret?

do you know if i am approachable?

do you know me at all from my description?



no, you cant guess can you?

why dont you take the time to say "hi"

and tell me your name

ask if i wrote the poem called "not alone"



is it tooo hard to be my friend?

or is it easier to be my foe

would it be too hard to care one insy weensy ounce for me?

or is it just easier to brush me off your shoulder?

like a grain of sand?



am i a loser??

if you asked me that four years ago i would have most likeley said yes

if you asked me now i wouldnt know if i were or not

if you asked me in the future i will most likeley answer NO



please

if you can

just take the time to say "hi"

get to know me for my good points and bad



i'm only human

i make mistakes

as i am sure you do too

its part of our nature



but please dont let that mistake

be letting me go by un noticed.

please be my friend

then i won't be alone


Author's Notes/Comments: 

written november 2001

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Joanna Bull's picture

Good one. I like it