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I don't want to do this anymore

But I pick it right back up again

Feeling anxiously guilty underneath

As I spark up the lighter again

I'll quit this time, I won't go back

I tell myself as I inhale deeply

then the doubt seems tiny like a crack 

All my worries escape me

In just moments later 

Another wave of a craving hits me

I try everything I can to get away

No matter what I can't get free. 

Bittersweet, I feel so torn

In between, both happy and sad

The feeling I crave I can't ignore

Conflicted over good and bad

Constantly itching for a fix

Chasing the first high that trapped you

Never to be found, it's a trick

A never ending illusion that you submit to.