12 minutes

What am I doing right now?
Am I lieing to myself
about the who why and how?
Whilst putting responsibility on the shelf?

In these 12 minutes till tomorrow
What have I done today?
and what can I give or borrow
before it all falls away?

It's in the past says the monkey
but it's in the present that we make a choice
So how can I make myself see
in the moment and raise my voice

8 minutes left to be squandered
or used in the best possible way.
I frequently go off and wonder
if I could have done better with my day.

I'm done now.
The last 7 minutes will all be in the past soon.
I'm done now.
Maybe in the future I'll think this me is a loon.

Author's Notes/Comments: 

I wrote this with 12 minutes left till the midnight of Easter morning. I don't feel like I've put the time and effort into making this week worth it. There's nothing I can change now, except to change myself right now. I wonder if anyone else feels this way. The longing to go back in time just a couple hours and say GET OFF THE COUCH AND MAKE A DIFFERENCE TODAY! I'm not particularly lazy, but I could do better. Apparently much, much better. And if anyone will take the time to read this, it is now 3 minutes till Easter. Goodnight. I'm about to start making a better next week right now, instead of worrying about this last week. Thank-you!

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SSmoothie's picture

i often feel this way especially

When people can't see what I've done, then someone comes along out if the blue and reminds you and thanks you for so many things done, we don't often dont realise the multitude of small amazingly helpful deeds that change lives. I know that's not what the poem is about exactly, but thought it worth a mention as it is related for me. Great way to spend the dying minutes of a day! Cheers SS

Don't let any one shake your dream stars from your eyes, lest your soul Come away with them! -SS    

"Well, it's life SIMS, but not as we know it" - ¡$&am

Theprofoundhummingbird's picture

Good thought!

I hadn't thought of anything that way except to take those moments for granted at times. When I get complimented out of the blue one day when the day has been rough it makes a big difference, no matter what the compliment really was. Thanks!

- Zachariah

cassiebee's picture

thank you!

wow. i loved this! it makes me want to forget about the bad weeks i've had and focus on the good ones:) thank you!!

The Princess in Waiting


Theprofoundhummingbird's picture

You're Welcome!!

I'm glad you like my poem! I'd love to check out yours!

- Zachariah

Wordman's picture

Nice work Zach, I've read

Nice work Zach, I've read quite a few of your poems and can see that you write personnal and unyielding truths. I dress my writings with imagery to buffer what you pen with open honesty. Keep writing, it's good for the soul, and it always helps us to see clearer and deal with life a bit easier.

Theprofoundhummingbird's picture

Thank you so much.

Thank you! I try to write from my heart. Because often times it's the only way I can get out my frustration or loneliness. It's nice to know someone recognizes my effort. Thank you again.

- Zachariah