I’m trying to use what I already know
while still learning
please stop feeding me metaphors
I’ll become even more aloof & insufferable
no curfew to break
no husband to bind me
I have forever had the sense
that my love is a calamity
so show me up show me out
make me a meridian
tell me the words
now that my memory has lapsed
do it right & it might feel like a returning
so my lungs will remind me I have never been here
with a shiver of déjà vu
old friend why so shy
I always hope to fall back in your arms again
& feel like I fit
yes maybe my hips don’t curve to your fingers the same anymore
but this is why we are moldable
pinch me into the right pattern
& I will gasp in relief at the pain
my heart loves to tug me down a saltwater fall
pretending we have never spent a night together like this
but I don’t want to find you only crying rivers
smile at me
old friend
even if it’s only with the joker’s face
I’ll rewrite the character with your eyes
I used to save your sentences in secret
but it’s not the only way to learn what I fall for
love with both lips & pen
come on, smile again
& if you need someone to tell
it could be me