This is my story

I sit there 

Listening to it all again

How many times will he call me fat?

What difference does it even make?

 

I never was

He just said it all the time

And made me believe it was true

This is my story.

 

I was actually slim 

But the abuse just never stopped

It started to become true

This is my story.

 

Now all I hear from my dad is 'fat ass'

But it was my brother who started it all

I say 'you don't think how your words affect people'

But he just laughs it off

 

Noone understands

At least I don't think they do

But many people suffer

Not the way that I do

 

I begin to feel sad 

Realising other have it worse

And mine doesn't really matter

 

People are taking their lives

But I contemplate whether I should

 

I know I shouldn't....

But these questions fill my mind:

What if it doesn't work?

What if it gets worse?

That will start some chatter.

 

This is truth of how I really feel

And sometimes it is so much more

This is my story and it is true

I feel like I'm fighting in a war.

 

This battle is with myself

I shouldn't care what others say

But I do and I've really tried to change

I care about what I weigh

 

This is my story.

 

Author's Notes/Comments: 

We're all battling something. We all have a story. What's yours?

saiom2's picture

  since thoughts have power i

 

since thoughts have power i will say to you

that you are slender and beautiful   God give you joy

AdamKMcElwain's picture

Your poem

 

This made me sad. It was very well written. Toxic people poison you. Find a way to get away, and then start healing yourself. 

Stephen's picture

Weight

What you weigh is not who you are.    ---   Stephen

allets's picture

No, My Pain Is Mine

I earned it, live with it bravely, and survive. Not for sharing with absolute strangers. Life is hard - no matter where you fall on the social-Ec scale; same world impacting on the psyche and bruising the soul. Artists lie. They make up stories - autobiographical writes are okay, but suicide stuff is a downer. Questing always for reality and the occasional hilarity that leads to joy - Lady A

 


...a

 

word_man's picture

you have a mind of your

you have a mind of your own,don`t let bullying change it


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