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Keep Smiling Blue Eyes
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More Than A Memory Blonde hair, blue eyes
Skin fair, so pale
So little, so innocent
With bones so frail
You loved me, you guided me
You showed me how
Your raised me up
To who I am now...
Blonde hair, blue eyes
Innocent no more
But stronger and better
Than ever before
You taught me to cope
You taught me to love
You taught me the words
Of our God above
You struggled, you fought
To be by my side
You overlooked my rebellion...
Forgave my lies
We loved, we laughed
We lived, we learned
You helped me gain
Everything I earned
A mother to me
A daughter to you
No father there,
So closer we grew
We fought, we swore
Said words, took them back
Spoke of qualites
We either had, or lacked
We hugged, we kissed
Smiled and cried
We had hopes, we believed
We misjudged, we lied
We sometimes failed
We tried again
We walked away
But never gave in
My story, I'll tell
It'll take some work
But I need to release
All of this hurt...
As a young child you were there
For every memory made
For everything I needed
Every sports game played
Mommy, mommy look at me
Playing in the sand
Mommy look at this picture for you
(A turkey, made from my hand)
Mommy, mommy, look at me
As I twirled around on the ice
Skating freely, dancing around
In my costume, and little tights
Mommy, can I just please spend the night?
Mommy, can she come over here?
I promise we wont wake you
"ok, ok, my dear"
Mommy look, I got an "A"
You'd be so proud of me
Even prouder the next time around
When on my report card were 3
Parent Teacher confrences:
"Amanda talks a lot"
"Well go figure," you would say
With the most serious face you got.
Years passed and passed
I was no longer a little girl
But even if I didn't show it
You were still my world
Hey Mom, I have a boyfriend!
You were there for my broken heart
When he decided to end things
That in reality didn't start
Mom, I'm going to prom
I need a dress to wear
You had to make sure
That I'd be the most beautiful one there
The day you caught me smoking
I will still never forget
You let that one slide
But didn't approve of it
The night I came home drunk
And puked all over the floor
"The food at McDonalds was bad"
You just shut my door
Mom, why are you getting sick
Why can they not fix you
"Its ok babe.."
"I swear we'll make it through"
You pushed and pushed the illness
The strongest woman I have known
Even though you left me
I will never be alone
I still carry your love
Look at pictures we took
Re-read notes you wrote
That I keep in my poetry book
"To my little precious girl, amanda"
"I love you with all my heart"
"Hope you have a great day- and happiness always"
Mom, to me this is art.
"Keep Smiling Blue Eyes"
"Love you forever - Mom"
I promise to you now
That just for you, I'll be strong
And yeah, I miss you like crazy
Not a day goes by
That I dont think about you
Or a day that I dont cry
Even if it isn't showing
I hurt, and need you here
But in the end I will have you forever
And will never again feel fear
The fear of never seeing you
Because I'll have you to hold
So from there we will continue
To let our love mold.
Having lost my dad to cancer, this really hit home for me. We fought a lot (we were far too alike) but I loved him dearly. While we were not as close at it sounds you and your mom are (your mom sounds like a truly wonderful person, btw), I can still imagine your pain.
This is such a beautiful poem. So laden with feeling; love, pain, sorrow, joy and strength. I can't think of a better way to honor the memory of someone who so obviously was your world. Someone whos world began and ended with you.
You have such a precious gift with words and a heart twisting way of creating beautiful mental imagery.
Here's to hoping you continue sharing.
-Clinton
This poem is amazingly deep, and truly touching.
Honestly, some of the best work I have read.
And that is because it is truly from the heart.
Having lost loved ones, it really hits home.
Beautiful, can't wait to read more.
First of all, I wanted to say thank you for your lovely comments on my poetry. It really means a lot to me.
Secondly, this poem is so beautiful. I can see the shape of this relationship so clearly while reading it, and on the technical side of writing, your sense of rhyme is so effortless it is astounding.
But outside of anything quantifiable, this is simply a beautiful, heartfelt, amazing piece of work. I'm sure your mother would be very touched by it. :)
~Lindsay~
Hey my myspace is www.myspace.com/malicious_xxsuicidexx add me ") If it asks for the last name just put in Nakata.
I posted a new poem.
Its called Suicide Note.
Lemme know what you think ")
xoxo Aura
OH MY GOD!
This poem is sooo amazing!
I got goosbumps sooo bad even after reading it twice.
The second time i read it aloud to my boyfriend, and started choking up.
This poem is absolutely beautiful.
Is it ok if i copy and paste it into my blog on myspace? Of course i'll put your name at the bottom because the writer deserves the credit.
But i am so taken back by this poem. Its absolutely amazing!
PLEASE post some more!
im anxious to see what your mind can unleash.
And thank you for the comment on my poems.
I'll be posting some more soon.
xoxo Aura
xoxo Aura