anesthetic

it's raining in London

and everything always changes

darkness creeps in so suddenly

not even rainbows could color this sky

for the dark is taking over

you will be free the moment

you accept the fact that you are getting older

and everything always changes

nothing you say can change this fact

those were the golden days

but it's nothing you want to take back

hold the railing with your hand

feel it's securities

as if it's something you felt you had

but you suddenly remember no feeling lasts

the only thing that is permanent is the past

oh how the years use to go by so fast

now you just want them to colorlessly past

with no memories or pain

with no title or name

you are just looking for an excuse

to feel the smallest amount of feelings your heart can produce

the room is forever quiet, silence is welcomed there

words will just hurt your ears, you'd rather be spared

but then a hummingbird visits your windowsill

and stares at you straight in the eye so still

the color in it's eyes reminds you of spring

and it's feather reminds you of everything

Everything you use to live for

and everything you now lost

it suddenly occurs to you

the risk of love is worth the cost

but now you are lonely

you are no one

you have been forgotten

you became undone

you breathe in the world but don't breathe it out

you try to break free, but you are a prisoner of your own doubt

the sky is still grey and you still feel pathetic

you take your life and use your regrets as an anesthetic

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Joel's picture

I loved the ending. (last four lines) Great 'ring' to the entire piece.


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