PostPoems Be Artistic. Be Creative. Be Inspired!

with a new day still harboring some shattered shards of

self doubt

I pilfer endlessly through discarded closets of 'no more'

to help hopefully clean them out

though my once misplaced pride continues to evade me still

after withdrawing my unsettled self from the fast track

I find I've lost my taste for charm's roughly sweet

yet now unnecessary kill

back to one's basics you might say

I have to somehow find the inner courage to make my own way

for indeed, I am finally and fully wanted for myself and not just

for what I am able to brilliantly bring to the surface from the ever

so guarded gentle within to say

the originality of recent days of old is no longer solely being accepted

so, the true, deep and intensely private emotions and thoughts have to

now be carefully redirected

back to a strong beating, healthy heart still so very naive but even more

so willing to try a not so very desperate love on for actual size

never again will I unknowingly live and be a part of such an intricate lie

which was and is that I am not so very different after all

now that I know the field I am so proudly standing on

I believe I am more than ready to play this form of ball

(thank you for what you do not realize that you have given me  

which is a basis for comparison (me now to me then)

if we have nothing else between us

at least we will have had this....................

(written May 9, 1993 pm)