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A WELCOMED DELUGE
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JOURNAL#23
I missed you
and
even the missing felt good
as such was
a sweet connection
more so to a certainty
now
than just to some vague idea of what
possibly could be
am I catagorized
under that of fool
for revealing this to you
this big revelation about me
these steps I take
they walk me
and do such steps of a woman
reaching for something worth
having
finally
feed the start of a virtual feast
for some security in the soul
far better than
the steps of an only lonely woman
who is merely exiting the emptiness
such fountain of regeneration
bullies the darkness away
one sweet conversation at a time
perhaps I am glancing up
with such hope caressing my winters
heart
maybe that is why
why that even if nothing ever becomes
of this
I'll still feel deeply for the great wealth
of caring man that so obviously resides in you
why its bigger than a mile high rainbow
on an unbelievably glorious day
as I can greatly sense the depth that animates
from you
Its as if its calling to me
the minuscule truth of such notion
bars no holds in my unweeded heart
is it crass of me to admit
that what you are about
the deep stream of soul
I can feel that flows through the core
of your being
could water too this neglected heart
with so little prodding too
yet it nags me just a bit
that my own soul's gouged needs
could possibly become a hindrance to you
and I don't want that
Sweetest GOD NO!
no taking away here
so many before have done that to you
already
that was the first thing right off
I was able to see
I would only like to add to
and so I must ponder this plight of mine
much further
but be patient
for no matter what
in the end
I know I'm going to like LOVE you so much
for I know me
and how my marshmallow heart works
you see it was a given
likely from the very first
so why should I fight the inevitable
'tis futile after all.........
(March 31,2000 1:15am)
