Pathetic One

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Ian L.

Two weeks too long since I’ve been missing you

Forever too long to be away from you

But when I was there you still didn’t notice me

You were too blind to see that we are meant to be

Maybe all this time I’ve been fooling myself

Cause right now you have your eye on someone else

I keep denying that it’s more than just a simple crush

That I’m in anything and everything but love

For so long, too long, I felt like I had to pretend

That you mean more to me than just a friend

I look at my watch hoping time will go the other way

But at the same time I get tired of yesterday

I try to teach myself not to dwell on the past

That good times are never really meant to last

Go on with your life and see if I care

It’s not like you ever knew I was there

I gave you a number that you’ll never use

Now I dub thee me the biggest fool

MY GOD I can’t believe that I fell for you

And I continued to fall after all its put me through

I wrote you a letter that you’ll never read

Hoping you’d understand and maybe you’ll see

That when everyone and everything is looking at you

They’re never gonna see you the way that I do

I never cared for your point of view

Or your idea of something new

I just hate myself for even wishing so hard

I never should have opened my heart

Cause in cases like this someone always gets hurt

Or someone ends up with a handful of dirt

But I remember those times when I was who you saw

But in truth I think you were just leading me on

Leaving me to be the pathetic one

And a sack full of pain that weighs a ton

It’s not like there’s a reason for me to cry

At some point everyone has to say goodbye

How can you say bye to what doesn’t exist

Just a painful, hopeless, worthless, very doubtful wish

Good times, boy, they never do seem to last

But when I think about it you can kiss my ass

It won’t matter what I say or what I try to do

More than likely I’ll still be in love with you

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Written 1/14/04

he'll never know...

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poetvg's picture

thank god i am
no the only one
going thru it
all on my own