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Journal page 3 + poem.
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journal entrys I dont want to write about sadness, tragedy or despair and i definitly dont want to hear how life is meaningless and god isnt really there. My idea no matter how abstract is even though existance isnt fair. With hope and helping others, happyness can be shared.
In the end all that matters is that you changed something for the better and are content with what you did in the time that you were given.
Ive been thinking alot lately on my death. Every night i go to bed i think about it. Whether ill wake up again the next day or not. I need to see the doctors for something that might be wrong so if this is my last journal i can tell you im not content. I found love but wasnt loved back. It all blew up in my face. My back sprouted some daggers. Life is treating me like shit. All in all out of all those bad things atleast i read my favorite book again, Talked to a friend i havent talked to in a long time and found out great things are coming there way and i couldnt be happier for them. My life wasnt a total waste if the little things i did made somebody happy and id live it all over again amillion times on a black and white screen with no sound and full of sadness just to make sure those little times I made things better wouldnt dissapear.
that's no good to not be content. i mean, i know we don't know eachother all that well...but if you ever need to talk...i'm here to listen. cliche, no...true.
so yup.
*awkward silence*
peace out girl scout
I read your authors comment, I can't buy that you feel you are the worst prize to win because you are yourself,that is what we all should be. Noone needs to be saved from being their genuine self. Others need to learn how to do and be just that. To be saved to be someone elses forever more. Hmm , keep in mind like everything else that lives and exists ,you are a fragment puzzle piece in the whole connected to something much more vast and that is where the true meaning is of being part of the whole. It is acceptance that goes beyond human thought and feeling....
I know how you feel when you say you're not content. I think each and every one of us can or has at least been or experienced that at some point. You just have to reach somewhere within your self and decide what you want and go after it. Believe in yourself! Be proud to be who u are! If you weren't urself, who else would you be? Everyone has a story, but it's up to you as to how yours will go. Nice writing!