I die

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April 2007

I die a bit more each and everyday

Even if I get a bit of hope...it gets ripped away

I try to hold on, I try to stay strong

But every moment I survive it feels that something is wrong



I'm holding on by a bit of hope that dangles on a string

But I wonder how it clings



Why did you make me believe

in such a beautiful lie...

You said you would never leave ...

But here I sit and pray to die



Just take the knife and stab it right through my heart

Kill what has already been torn apart



You left me here to bleed and cry

You took it all.......and now I'm dead inside.



You make me hate all I have become

Because if it weren’t for you I would have already been done

I wouldn’t have put myself through this hell

I wouldn’t have to worry about not being well



It hurts to breathe......it hurts to move

Especially when the movement proves...

That I am still here and alive...

Another night I pray to not survive.



Just kill me with ease while I am I sleeping

This life that merely exists isn’t worth keeping



There are scars left in masses on my heart

From when I was killed inside and the murder left its mark

You look into the eyes of mine....

Do they still shine...?



They lost their sparkle....their once lively glow...

Now they just are dead and black as coal

Nothing left to be seen....

Nowhere safe left to lean



Take this life....it has no worth...

Not when it is constantly being hurt

I cut and bleed to know I am still here...

and when I find I am I shed a million tears



When it comes down to it...

I wish I never existed....

Just let me become invisible ...

and be a far off memory that eventually you forget



I've lost so much time...that I cant seem to get back..

Happiness left long ago....it ran off the tracks

No smiles left to be shown....

Nothing good will ever be known


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I can relate to this....it's really good

Shattered Eden