The more I love, the more I am alone.

I put all my cards into hats

 

many times

 

and lost

 

Hoped that I would not be betrayed

 

and abandoned

 

but reality always won out

 

and my idealization of what I desired always lost.

 

PPl always seem to stray away from me

 

no matter who it is.

 

The more I love, the more I am alone.

 

It does matter how hard I try

 

or how much time I spend trying to get someone to care about me.

 

In the end i'm just wasting my time.

 

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Morningglory's picture

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Sometimes, I talk to my heart and say nice things to it. Then take a long dep breath in and wit for the response. It's soft. Can bring tears. I say thank you for continuing to beat, even through the hardest of trials. Life isn't always easy but we can find something to be grateful for every day. If all is shit, look outside and find something small to be grateful for. It could be just a blade of grass, or a shape in a cloud. Just breathe slow and appreciate. Then your heart smiles. Anyway, it has helped me. Maybe it will help you too. Perspective can change. 


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Sounds like you need to start loving yourself. Forgiveness is a good idea too. Trying to Get others to live you, might just push them away. It all starts at home...in your own heart. Can you live yourself? I think you can. 


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I don't know how to do that. 

I don't know how to do that.