Ive struggled to find the real me, but ive managed to see the death of me. The struggle & pain is like a normal factor, while the happiness and comfort is just a dream. Im lost in this world called earth, its not where I belong. Im sinking & sinking in my unhappiness. Always giving preaches telling people what their doing wrong, and why they should fight. Such a hypocrite when I dont even want my own life. I've been sucked in to all these lies telling me their gonna do right but you never believe the spark in a devils eye. All these bullets, and guns people dying and shit. Make me wanna protect my momma & little sisters cause they dont need to see that shit. Ive came to the conclusion I dont fw 12 every since them mfs put my brother in jail. I just feel so unspoken, so unheard maybe Im tripping or Im just lost for the right words.....

Written by: Elay'Shia Wilson , 
Author's Notes/Comments: 

I wrote this poem because these are my inside feelings. I write only what I feel and think. 

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SSmoothie's picture

That's the best way to write.

That's the best way to write. Juststraight out. Raw. It's silly to live your life for others because living for yourself seems so unnecessary.  But taking control and changing shut you don't like seems impossible. But it isn't it just takes time and risk. If you can survive depression,  you can survive anything! I had to wake my self up out of a depressive coma. But I did do it, and I'm so much strongerand happier  for it. You are valuable. Disappointment happens, poetry helps. You write well, can't wait to read more! Welcome to PP!  :) 

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CreativeWriterE's picture

Thank you

 Thank you , I have had a passion for writing since a very young age. Being that I am only 16 that isn't that long. I just write what my heart tells me to, and I follow my emotion. Thank you for your postive comment you will most definitley see more of my poems on PP. 

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allets's picture

Justice vs Injustice

We all feel in awe of the world that steamrolls over us sometimes - then shock, then horror, then anger comes in that order. To do is to change, but to survive makes doing and changing possible - the struggle never ends. Ask any mother, it begins with struggle too. Great post ~allets~