I'm Sorry


It doesn't matter how much
I bleed, it doesn't matter
What I think, say, or feel.
All I am is invalid.

It only matters how
I make you feel.
How you think of me.

Because it's your world,
And it's best to reject
All things that don't fit
Into your perspective. Best
To forget all beyond
Your reasoning and understanding.

I hope this makes you
Happy. I hope that all
Your disrespect of my
Identity makes you taller,
But most of all I hope
This makes you feel
A certain type of pleasure,
And I hope your actions
Confirm my suspicions.

So I can find a way to
Forget my empathy, a way
To treat you as you've
Treated me. So that I
Can selfishly hold only my
Perspective, only my thoughts,
My desires, and maybe
I can forget that my words
And actions affect others.

But my heart won't let me!
So I'm sorry at all the
Discomfort I've caused you.
I'm sorry that I'm not how
You want me to be.

And it's okay, hurt me,
Hurt me until you feel
Fine, hurt me until you've
Built yourself up enough,
Hurt me as much as
It takes to make you

Happy. Because my happiness
Doesn't matter, remember
It's your world after all.

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bishu's picture

Nice to read you after a long long time

The write was an expression of guilt & grievances towards some loved one (I don't understand poetry you know) I read it carefully in minute detail. Being elder to you I can only suggest that you try to avoid complicated people Best wishes for a lovely weekend Mr Diamond Smile


©bishu 

 

Diamond_Wills_New_War's picture

Thank you. You understand

Thank you. You understand more than you give yourself credit for, and I hope the weekend finds you well.


Long days and pleasant nights

Diamond

allets's picture

I Adore This Poem

It is either self-effacing or I don't give a hoot, and "empathy" is kinda central. Mello, mello, mello ~Lady A~


 

 

Diamond_Wills_New_War's picture

It's about my brother, I wish

It's about my brother, I wish I could bless him with some empathy, he's always been lacking in that department.


Long days and pleasant nights

Diamond