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You'd never know

By looking at me that I am sad,

You'd never know

how many times I've wished I were someone else.

You'd never know

how many times I wished I were anywhere else.

You'd never know,

I've stayed up late crying until my eyes were red

You'd never know

all the times I bit my nails until my fingertips bled.

You'd never know

how I watched others smile and laugh wishing I could join

You'd never know,

I despised their smiles, hating that they were happy and I couldn't be.

By looking at me you'd swear I was happy,

You'd swear I was fine, I had problems you couldn't see.

But you'd swear I was always the loudest laugher

the one who spoke the loudest and the most.

That I was the life of the party.

You simply couldn't understand that I had lost it.

Ended it all and that I was dead.

You barely could believe what the suicide note said...

You never knew,

That I laughed the loudest to cover the sound of my stomach.

You never knew

I spoke the loudest, trying to muffle my treacherous thoughts.

You never knew

that I talked the most because tears threatened to spill over.

You never knew

how I wished more than anything that your life was mine

You never knew,

that despite whatever problems you faced mines were worse

You never knew

I was the life of the party because the liqour took away the pain

You never knew

I did all the drugs because it eased away the thoughts I had

You never knew

Me.