as i lay here in the dark

As i lay depressed here in the dark,



my soul wants to be,



with the one who holds whats left,



left of my heart,



the pain is to real,



its tearing me apart,



as i lay alone in the dark,



i take a blade from the draw,



lightly i trace my vains,



the voices r hard to ignore,



my pain is great,



for i wish it would end,



but that wont happen,



for however deep i cut,



death just sits there and laughs,



he said im not going to take,



to end ur pain on this day,



for u must find anothere way,



the blade falls to the floor,



now its cover in blood,



as i lay here in the dark,



with this pain thats hard to bare,



for it is my fault,



i broke her heart to protect her,



i never wanted her to get hurt,



all i wanted was for her to be happy,



even if its without me,



i lay here in the dark,



with a broken soul,



that i canot mend,



for i will always love her,



even after the very end,



so follow ur heart and soul i say,



even if it causes pain its the best way,



for i hope she is happy,



for the rest of her days,



she hates me now and im afraid,



afraid that is how it will always stay؟

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Stephanie Philbeck's picture

there is one thing in that poem that describes me and that is that i cut myself 2..and i know why people do that 2 its cuz whenever ur depressed or angry and u cut urself the pain it feels good..i told my dad that and he doesn't understand. let the gurl know that u hurt her 2 protect her...let her know that u just wanted her 2 be happy and tell her that u still love her no matter what happens....srry if people giving u advice bothers u i'm just trying 2 help cuz i don't want nobody 2 b like me even though some people r worse but i can't help it but i am pretty bad depressed and in2 the darkness...and i know how love can really hurt cuz a lot of guys as hurt me very bad and tourn my heart in2 a million pieces.