all my fault

i have waited for you

and cried myself dry

and acted like a fool

to catch your eye

said things i have never

and will never mean

and all because i missed you.

i have lost all faith

in a passing attack

and still held onto the hope

you'd somehow come back

but i pushed you away with

my wild mood swings

and all because i missed you.

i have lost all control

in this course of infection

and taken your indifference

as the harshest rejection

i forgot there were people

more important than me

and all because i missed you.

now you are leaving

and i think it's my fault

i think you saw my advances

as a mad, planned assault

i never meant to do this

to drive you on out

it was just because i miss(ed) you.

Author's Notes/Comments: 

Ah, written so long ago. How emotional I can be! Thank goodness the important people in my life are patient!

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May Merino's picture

Boy can I ever relate!!!! I really like this poem. I am sorry it was inspired by pain. This poem says so much and I hope things get better! -May

Deborah Russell's picture

We all do this...and it is after all, only human. i think that love does this sometimes...tests us against the odds...there is a lesson to be learned, but not always a harsh one...thanks for sharing.