To A Friend......I Hope

I laid in bed last night,

And all I did was cry.

I stayed up all night sobbing,

And asking myself why.

I know that I was pitiless,

Heartless, and cruel,

When I left you alone.

I must be a fool.

I've always been one,

To go my own way.

I'm cursed, I know,

What else can I say?

You've been so nice to me,

and yet I've not to you.

I wish I  could be kind,

But I know not what I do.

Every time they get too close,

I try to move away.

I tried before and they all went.

Why do you want to stay?

I hope I didn't anger you,

when I didn't say;

All that I wanted to,

And when I didn't stay.

It's hard for me to speak,

When all I feel is pain;

And all the words that I posses,

Are gone from out my brain.

But maybe it is better,

That no words were said.

For then we'd never ever know,

The path that lies ahead.

This path that lies ahead of us,

Is one that we must chose,

And as for me I chose the path,

with nothing left to loose.

I'm not a man of pride,

but man of solitude.

I will apologize.

I'm sorry I was crude.

I'm sorry I left.

I'm sorry I didn't stay

I'm sorry most of all,

For all I didn't say.

I'm sorry for the grief I caused,

And that I made you cry.

I didn't know one word could hurt,

As much as that goodbye.

I'm sorry I rejected you,

When you accepted me.

No one has ever cared so much,

For that I will thank thee.

Author's Notes/Comments: 

I wrote this after doing something really stupid.....ever done that?  This person is now my best friend.  I've known her for four years and if she's single when she's thirty I get to marry her!!!  Lots of my poetry is written for her or about her so pay attention!

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hey, that was so great! EVERY poem I have read of yours I know how you feel in them, cuz I've been there with you when I read them even if I haven't been there myself personally. That is what an awesome writer you are. You take me to where you've been and leave me wanting more...