DEAR CHRIS

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LOSING LOVE

Remember when we first talked, it was like magic. With every word it seemed you were paving your way back into my heart, rebuilding my faith in love and reviving my faith in menYou were extradinary, unlike any other, so special, so kind, so addictive. I felt from day one as if I had known you all my life. I remember are converstations, late into the night. They were filled with love and kindred spirits we were indefinitely. Now I am left to wonder, what happned? Do you know that you are the only man that truely knows me in and out. I swear with you the world was being created over again, I admit at first I tryed to downplay the connection but our intesity was almost inevitable like the lining up of planets. I ran from myself and my feelings locking myself in denial. But you being the determined man you are saw right through my insecurities, unsure feelings and hesitaed thoughts, capturing me fully. I think you got scared or bored with me and I have to say I keep wondering what happned Our loved seemed so real, I mean you have heard of the saying it walked like a duck,talked like a duck, so I assumed it was. I guess my assumptions was wrong. Remember all our plans all our everything how we were going to grow old together see things together so now I am here left wondering what in the hell happned what did i do wrong You said we had a perfect love and it would never die my love for you has not died and never will.

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deepinyourdreams's picture

Very nice letter to Chris. Expressed your feelings well,
also your fears and questions. If you get time, I have a peice written you might relate to in my site. It is called...."A Walk With a Friend" ps. thanks for your comment.
Barry Anderson


"Deepinyourdreams"

Wendy D'Michelle's picture

Teresa-
I got your comment and wanted to let you know that the pain does indeed go away. Trust me on this. I have never felt so free and happy. I can do what I want and when I want. You will see what I mean soon. There is always someone going through the exact same thing at the exact same time. Look to your friends and family for happiness and encouragement.
Wendy

wendymd31@yahoo.com

Nicole Esparza's picture

I love these kind of poems. Where it's like you're writing to that certain person. These kind of poems are so personal and raw and so-to the point. I have a couple of them myself. I think these are the best kind of poems.

-Nicole Esparza

s3xy_sheep's picture

makin me cry this is beautiful

9inety's picture

Theresa,
Hi! I read this expose' and I want you to know you are not alone. Here is something to read about coping with a breakup.
Ending a relationship is one the most avoided and feared human experiences. As a culture, we have no clear-cut rituals for ending relationships or saying good bye to valued others. We are often unprepared for the variety of feelings we experience. Some common reactions are
Denial-We can’t believe that the relationship is over.
Anger-We are angry and often enraged at our partner or lover.
Fear-We are frightened by the intensity of our feelings. We are frightened that we may never love or be loved again.
We are frightened that we may not survive our loss, but we will do so.
Self-blame-We blame ourselves for what went wrong. We replay our relationship over and over, saying to ourselves, "If only I had done this. If only I had done that".
Sadness-We cry, for what seems an eternity, as we suffer the loss.
Guilt-We feel guilty, particularly if we choose to end a relationship. We don't want to hurt our partner, yet we don't want to stay in a lifeless relationship.
Disorientation and confusion-We don't know who or where we are anymore. Our familiar world has been shattered. We've lost our bearings.
Bargaining-We plead with our partner to give us a chance. "Don't go", we say. "I'll change this and I'll change that if only you'll stay".
Hope-Initially we may fantasize that there will be a reconciliation, that the parting is only temporary, that our partner will come back to us. As we heal and accept the reality of the ending, we may dare to hope for a newer and better world for ourselves.
Relief-We can be relieved that there is an ending to the pain, the fighting, the torment, and the lifelessness of the relationship.
What you feel may seem overwhelming, you are a normal woman, a normal human being and all that you are experiencing are "normal" reactions. They are necessary to the process of healing, Now, you will eventually move on and engage in other relationships.
Be patient with yourself.

Allow yourself to feel the sadness, anger, fear, and pain associated with the ending. Denying those feelings or keeping them inside will only prolong them.
Recognize that guilt, self blame, and bargaining are our defenses against feeling out of control and unable to stop the other person from leaving us. But there are some endings we can't control, because we can't control another person's behavior.
Give yourself time to heal, and be kind to yourself for the duration: pamper yourself, ask for support from others, and allow yourself new experiences and friends.
Talk it over with someone. This can often give us perspective. And, I will close with this, forgiveness is important also, do not judge the other person in this change they contributed to in your life. Don't be a victem, you only control your own life do your best.
If you feel "stuck" in a pattern and unable to change it, talking to a professional counselor may help.
God Bless, Keep writing for as long as you can, Stay safe and know you are loved so be happy.
Dlyan


"One of the best results of life, is the torment of love"

Dylan Eliot

poetvg's picture

BEAUTIFULL WORK
ON THIS ;*)

babe1233's picture

I can relate to this women always care for men more than they care for us my ex put me through all kinds of bullshit and I'm 16 I shouldn't have learned any of it yet but my life is rough and i learned to deal with it but guys will just never understand