each minute
each year of my life is
spinning by faster
and I am unraveling it
as if in search of something
I long for pieces of crushed velvet,
jagged edges,
sharp silver tongues
that leap to me from all their loves and all their stories
I keep wanting things I can’t touch
I think I know how something feels
until I realize I am just the mirror
I am unraveling
until I will run out of moments
and then
what will it all be for
maybe if I’m as high as I’m supposed to be
if I don’t have anything to cry over
I don’t know what to do with myself…
and what would I do with all that time
so now I have inhaled a lifetime of pure feeling
I am soaked and can’t come up or down
my head is pounding
I am swimming in a sea of chaos
that stings my skin
feels like exactly what I want to be
I am bursting and still the silence is drier than my mouth
maybe now I’ll let you cut me open
This is profoundly beautiful.
This is profoundly beautiful.
Enjoy effulgent days, and exquisite nights,
unto the exultations of Heaven.
Starward