fake a smile

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real friends

so everyone sees me

as that happy girl

the one always smiling

in the perfect world

except for you

you saw all the pain

you knew all my secrets

i told you without refrain

but now when we talk

i notice something new

i fake a little laugh

it's not what i used to do

the good and the bad

you knew it all

but now i feel like

you don't know me at all

i suppose it's my fault

for pretending to be happy

but i just can't help it

cause happy's what you want me to be

it's just a little difficult

the months apart seem too hard to mend

but one's not supposed to fake a smile

around one's best friend

Author's Notes/Comments: 

he's been in colorado at boarding school.. and since he's been gone, i have shut everyone out.. i fake a smile around everyone, and when he came back for a visit, i noticed i was faking a smile aruond him. maybe it's because he's been gone for so long and maybe things will go back.. but even still, i shouldn't feel like i need to do that. anyways, he's back at boarding school.. he's home for good in july, maybe than things will go back.. I LOVE YOU ALWAYS THOUGH SQUISHY!

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