Sometimes there's a tap on the shoulder you can't ignore

Dear Lord, 

I don't want to believe what you're saying

But I know you bring only truth

I know you want to save me, 

Or challenge me,

Am I wise enough to see the signs

And will i be strong enough

To  say yes? 

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CreativeWriterE's picture

Excellent

   You are an excellent writer. I've read quite a few of your poems, and I love your passion.


You've gotta pass hell to get to heaven..

SSmoothie's picture

Awwww thanks! I'm going to

Awwww thanks! I'm going to read a few of yours now :) cheers! 


Don't let any one shake your dream stars from your eyes, lest your soul Come away with them! -SS    

"Well, it's life SIMS, but not as we know it" - ¡$&am

mrpoofs's picture

Argh. Scary. The unfathomable

Argh. Scary. The unfathomable is too intense for me. I'd rather stay in the corpreal. My mom wants me to say yes to God thought. Idk what to do. So hard!

SSmoothie's picture

God is that thing you call on

God is that thing you call on when every other source of hope is drawn or lost. It's that vibe you send out as a silent prayer, it's the things you manifest by constantly streaming through your mind. It's the force that has no obligation to you but can and will intervene on your behalf, it is as light as it is dark, temp rental as we are, a soul collective aso well as  matter and energy. It's free and stream able.  Some people call it thinking to themselves or talking to themselves. There are many roads to God. Pick one. I prefer the direct line, others prefer worship and sacrifice, which I do partly because I'm human, partly because I'm trying to make up for my lacking, partly because I strive to make a difference.  Mostly I resonate with the philosophies of Jesus and I have no requirement to be saved. I don't even think it's unconditional.  Or a right. But it keeps me sane. Plus it's the best excuse for being human I know. Good luck with it. It doesn't have to be any thing you don't want it to be. Acknowledging your soul is enough. Hugss


Don't let any one shake your dream stars from your eyes, lest your soul Come away with them! -SS    

"Well, it's life SIMS, but not as we know it" - ¡$&am

mrpoofs's picture

What is the direct line?

What is the direct line?

SSmoothie's picture

You're never out of touch,

You're never out of touch, though you must reach out because freewill requires choice and a direct line is a choice. A choice to have faith in the unseeable like the wind until it affects someone or something. You're already on a direct line. Just start a conversation.invite all good and healing and nurturing things in your life,  have patience, there will be an answer but not always the one you want, but definitely the one you need. And if you have the courage to go with it, and give up some of your control amazing things happen.  Trials are overcome,  gifts are noticed, happiness becomes a joy in the midst of the darkest darkness. If it is good you will feel right, if it's selfish or fear, you will feel trapped by your own conditions.  Hey its a little risk for a huge reward. So you have nothing to lose. It either stays the same, or it changes. Perhaps focus in and ask for what it is you want, then ask what do you need. The two are very often different  in some way, sometimes very different. The results usually achieve what you want or better.  Start smiling more. Everyone has the capacity for an amazing spirit.  The best thing is that the spirit collectively or individual ally are indomitable!  Enjoy your explorations! Hugss Ss ps. don't expect too many answers,  expect results over time. :) oh and you will be tested. Your will against your wants. Try not to sabotage yourself like I often do. I'm still on a learning curve. 


Don't let any one shake your dream stars from your eyes, lest your soul Come away with them! -SS    

"Well, it's life SIMS, but not as we know it" - ¡$&am

mrpoofs's picture

You sound like my friend

You sound like my friend Brent. He's currently a campus minister and had been trying to evangelize me for the longest time. I'm afraid to try, and don't know why. Maybe its cuz I hate the word no or maybe its because I dont wanna be let down. Ive gotten close to a conversation of sorts with a higher power before, but I was high and attributed it to the highness and reverted back to heathenism after I woke up. I might try. I dunno. Everyone says its so great and magical and powerful and affirming and everything, so sometimes I feel like I'm missing out on something great, but the metaphysical aspects of it bothers me. Panthiesm makes it all feel whole somehow, so I tend to stick with it even though it makes me sound wacko. And my dad never told me about believing and led me to think he was athiest or something, and he was such a dominating force in my life, I dont knowhow to get away from that or ven if that would be a good thing. Save me smoothie!

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Ha ha, no one can save you

Ha ha, no one can save you except you and faith in yourself which is supported by faith in humanity which is supported by the good stuff that happens which has a source but is so compassionate does not force. You don't have to be religious, just spiritual, pick a guru. Take what you like leave the rest. You are already having conversationsome with a higher power.it's not a direct answer, ghosts and demons do that. It's a quiet understanding. Not a thunderbolt. It won't matter if you're high or not.  Indians and many cultures do things to find their spirituality.  Some fast, some go through extreme rituals, some meditate, others take hallucinogens like cava. The point is you're already asking the universe for stuff, you're already manifesting stuff. It's happening in your life now. And don't be afraid of disappointing your father because you have just asked to be liberated. You are free to think and believe what you like. You need to live your own spirituality. That fact that you want one is aleay 90% of the journey. If you're looking for proof. Stop discounting it. :) it's everywhere. Don't let the deluded man dominated cults push you away from spirituality with their warped take on religion. I am no fan of organised religion.  It is too small minded to address the total need. So I'm not say on go to church. In fact go to many and as different as possible. You can see the blind and you can see the awake. Trust that you are not just a fluke and that you have a higher purpose. Be your own kind of incredible in your own way. I'm no guru but I've got a line that keeps me sane and gives me hope. I hope you realise yours :) you might wanna look at my third eye and god consciousness folder and see how I'm constantly in turmoil over it. :) 


Don't let any one shake your dream stars from your eyes, lest your soul Come away with them! -SS    

"Well, it's life SIMS, but not as we know it" - ¡$&am

mrpoofs's picture

Well Im definitely spiritual,

Well Im definitely spiritual, so I guess Im kinda there. I definitely believe in a cosmic balance, and that keeps me pretty straight. I dont like organized religion either. So much pressure! You have to be and act and think a certian way just to fit in, and questions are discouraged. My dads gone so I cant really disappoint him now :/.  I'll take a deep long look at that folder next time I come up, were bout outta time. Thanks for being such a good friend.  

KindredSpirit's picture

No one is perfect

Dear SSmoothie.

And mysterious ways are mysterious

Even when we think they arent.

WML

KS

allets's picture

Lord

a term from medieval England - King James version of text in translation. Spirit vs corporeal articulations and the anthropomorphism of god trouble me exceedingly. He is no he and god does not sit on a throne (kings from Medieval times highest elevation of status). Angels are pretty fierce - you don't win against them. Heaven will be like nothing a human ever imagined (or wrote down). It's about the spirit -Stella

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SSmoothie's picture

Lord Jesus,  God

Lord Jesus,  God unimaginable.indescribable. as leadership the male figure as love in the female. God is not an identity but an entity and woven into every fabric of existence on all Dimensions known and unknown. Bugs me too. But Lord is my word for guidance :)hugss


Don't let any one shake your dream stars from your eyes, lest your soul Come away with them! -SS    

"Well, it's life SIMS, but not as we know it" - ¡$&am

SSmoothie's picture

True. hugs :D 

True KS hugss :D 


Don't let any one shake your dream stars from your eyes, lest your soul Come away with them! -SS    

"Well, it's life SIMS, but not as we know it" - ¡$&am