Judgement

You don’t want to know the real me

Would you accept me, if you could read my mind?

Or saw the state I am in?

Would you say you care…

When you saw me cutting?

In my madness that I cut?

Would you even want to face me

If you knew I had placed those bruises

And if you saw I am not as happy as I portray?

I am not happy, but I can’t show you

I am afraid you will see my sadness and not react

Or worse tell me I should change…

Without even trying to understand

So I cut in secret, not in shame

Choosing a select few to know

The few that know are worthy of handling me

Worthy of comforting me

You are not worthy, because you don’t want to be

You are perfection

WELL I’M NOT PERFECTION

So I cut on like I move on

You handle yourself in a different way

Does that make you better?

I think not

Giving attitude to others in not better,

Just placed on someone else

So I give myself the hits you feel like giving others

We are no different you know

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