I'm a mess to be found.



I used to dance to move you

I used to laugh to get closer to you

I’d scream so you’d notice I’d gone

I’d die for a little less silence

In the absence of your heart



I used to imagine your songs for me

I used to imagine your feelings for me

I’d make wishes on the stars and the moon

My dreams had become boring but then there was you



Then it got lost

Whatever we had it just got lost

I moved away and wandered far

At much heavy cost

I lost what I had

I wanted it to be you

I lost myself in innocence

I was battered I was bruised





These days I’m too badly broken

These days I’m too badly hurt

My defences are always up

These days my guards too solid

These days I’m tainted by words



These days everyman’s a liar

A scumbag, a cheat

These days everyman’s after one thing

And it just isn’t me





This is what happened when your heart is breeched and your guard is let down

He’s rotten me spoiled me into the ground and this terrible mess that he left needs to be found.


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