I am the monster here

I thought I could have you,

I thought you said I could,

But I've never felt so lonely with just your eyes in my picture of you,

And look what you made me become,

Second best, the "best friend",

That's not how I wanted this to end,

And I would imagin this would take time,

But without you I feel like I have no more life left to live,

So we talk and you smile,

And my knees can't handle the weight of your lips.

So I fall, & and I fell.

Turn into a monster like me,

So I can sleep soundly,

And I hate the way you are so constant,

And I hate the way I can't make you mine.

And I hate that I am the monster here.

Author's Notes/Comments: 

Don't smile at me,
Because it kills me.

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