Dear who ever this may concern

Dear who ever this may concern

I know it’s been years and you think I would learn

But I am not half of what I should be

I’ve been letting people down since I could breathe

And I know there is no one else to blame but me

I just lay in bed

As though I was dead

And I half wish I was

Simply because

There is no beauty in my letdowns

There is no cuteness in my pain

Something so easy that should take me minutes

Somehow it takes me days

My mind is my worse enemy

Just give me a sad song to match my misery

I don’t deserve the sunlight on my face

Is there a way I can be replaced?

I just sit in the corner of my room

Thinking of the people I accidentally used

If I could get up I think I would say

I never wanted things to turn out this way

So dear anyone I may have hurt in my lack of movement

I’m trying my very best to make some kind of improvement

But I’ve been failing for years

Maybe it’s better if I just disappear.

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