You deserve it Ashley*



Its not that I don’t think I deserve

Or even that I am afraid

I mean of course I am afraid

Who isn’t?

Being human is being afraid

And being me is feeling the fear and doing it anyways

It’s more that I am tired

Not desiring to sleep or take a break tired

But the kind of tired that never ends

Where you could sleep for twelve hours and sit for six more

And still not find the energy to stand

I am loving in a deficit

A deeply dug hole in my soul

Remains of the time I tried to find china

So it’s not that I don’t think I have the right to have it

Or want it

Or find it

It’s that I found it

Had it

Wanted it

And loss it

And it’s not even that I fear wanting, having, doing


It’s just that I want what I can’t have

So why hurt others just to have what I don’t want?


Author's Notes/Comments: 

I got into university today...I now offically have more on my plate than I can digest... the good news is odds are I will write like crazy!



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Some gold here especially

Some gold here especially love deeply dug hole in my soul remnants of when I tried to find china. That's deep! Excuse the pun. Loved the poem love the concept, the style and charm offensive ;D 

Don't let any one shake your dream stars from your eyes, lest your soul Come away with them! -SS    

"Well, it's life SIMS, but not as we know it" - ¡$&am

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thanks my love, I haven't been writting so much these days and was worried I would lose it soon, you know if you don't use it you lose it ;)

Much Love


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No, in college. PM me the particulars you. Scholarship? Smart Rabbit Runner - U are gonna wow your profs with your writing of poetry - C O N G R A T U L A T I O N S!!!!! KMP - this is the best Christmas present ever. Love and Prayers and good luck ~A~





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Allets you just made me cry...good tears...I think lol :) <3

Much Love