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You know I considered breaking up with you

really

honestly

considered breaking up with you

that time after the fight that broke my trust

That’s why I was odd

at the Lion’s Den over dinner

because I had really

honestly

considered breaking up with you

hadn’t fully come to terms with my choice not to

was still decompressing and processing the pain and the violation

trying to reconcile it with your request for a chance to make it right

sat across from you feeling angry and hurt

not knowing how to let it go so I could feel the other feelings

like love and joy

but I stuck it out

Sat in the awkward dinner, felt closed and emotionally safeguarded

went for the walk in the park, swung on the swings

slowly learned to let us laugh

leaned into the kisses

opened like a moon flower as the night progressed

asked you to accompany me home

fully gave you the chance to make it right

and you did

Point is

I considered breaking up with you

really

HONESTLY

considered breaking up with you

so much so that I spent a day researching relationships

and I read these two articles from The Good Man Project

the first was on how you know you have a healthy relationship

which I realised we do

the second was titled “before you end it”

which was all about the stages of relationships

and why most relationships fail at the first sign of problems

Turns out its disillusionment, which is natural and healthy and needed

but most people buy into those Hollywood lies that love is easy

and just works so when it isn’t working then it’s time to end it

so they can’t handle it when they hit the moment that they realise

their partner is only human

And we had hit that

for me

on my end

and I considered breaking up with you

really

honestly

considered breaking up with you

then I read those two articles

and didn’t

Then the tables turned

I broke your trust, hurt your feelings

disillusioned you

asked for the same chance to make it right

and you didn’t consider breaking up with me

really

honestly

consider breaking up with me

You just did it