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It hurts so much
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Depression It hurts so much,
my heart does,
yet I do not understand this,
why?
why does it hurt so?
I cry and weep asking whom ever will listen
but it helps none except it gives me a good cry.
But what good does that do,
except delay the eventual.
But it still hurts so much,
my soul aches and bleeds.
Cracked and broken are my heart and soul
for so long I can not pick up the pieces anymore.
They are scattered through out my existance,
I try to find a step up but every time I do I take
two steps down.
Do I long for death? Sometimes I do
I long for a place where my heart and soul no longer
hurt me so.
But I am a coward I can not do anything,
I can't even starve myself for one meal so much for
being a man huh?
So I will live my life like this for all time till
my time ends on this world of pain and torment
Wow...that's pretty deep man. I know how it feels to be there been there quite often though in me it comes out more as rage than depression, still the rage stems from depression to hide it from others who don't understand. I still feel this same rage in my heart everyday, and I am trying to defeat it. Yet this is not a task I can take on alone. I will fail, but then, when I admit my failures, I am saved, but I don't need to preach to you...you know the truth in your heart. I think you just gotta find it dude. I love ya man.