Who I Really Am

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What kind of man am I?

A question that often comes to mind

I am many things all rolled into one

I am the moon, stars and the blazing

hot sun

I am a leader not a follower and

generally stand alone

I have the resources of life to make

it on my own



I do not view things in a basic perspective

I try to think things thru with thorough logic

If you do not study me I will be portrayed as

stuck up and obnoxious

& your approach to me will timid, intimidated

of me in your subconcious

I will manipulate you if you give me the chance

you must stay on your toes and always try to have

the upper hand

I will come off as a father figure sometimes

overbearing

but my nature is humanitarian and very caring



I am a cerebral hunter preying on the minds

of the weak

challenging your every word daring your intellect

to speak

I need your mind to keep me alive

mental stimulation is how I survive

If you do not approach me on my level you will

belittle your very essence

and you will contradict my every presence

that I can not help because I am who I am

if you choose not to think then I'm not your man



Relish the company of women that I do

they enlighten me with their thoughts and my soul

they soothe

I have a hole in my heart that my spirit seeks to fill

it is for my soulmate to come and place her seal

on my heart to stop this pain of the lonely

and to fill it with the joys of matrimony

keeping the company of different women is simply a pastime

for I already know who is too be poem in my rhyme



Like any man I have my flaws

but like very few I have actions that merit applause

whenever you want or need I will be your friend

there to give you advice but most of all to listen

I'll be your mother when you need an ear

your father when you have a fear

your brother when you want to play

your lover when you want to stay

if you have my trust I will let you guide me with

a blind eye

because I know you will lead with truth not with lies



You will be forever beautiful to me gracing the earth

I will constantly prove it with my never ending flirt

I will give you all the attention a woman desires

and keep your bosom filled with passionate fires

I will support you in your endeavors travel with you

in your quest

I will lift you up and make you realize you are the best

that you can do anything you want to do

of course I will expect nothing less from you

I am the man of your dreams come to life come true

sauve and debonair a definite Mr. Cool

humble, meek, caring, and kind

compassionate, understanding, considerate of your signs

I am your challenge I am your goal

I am your lightly baked butter dipped honey biscuit roll



When it comes to making love you will not be deprived

because all I want to do is to satisfy

being realistic of course there will be times I will

go for myself

but overall it is you I will help

and try to bring to new highs

hoping to elevate our sexual minds



I am a full package with a life time warranty

but hard to repair if you damage me

communication, trust, and honesty is what I need for a team

give me those three and you will have your dreams

it takes one time of betrayal and I won't ever be the same

you of course will have yourself to blame

because I would have given my all

it would have to your choice to take that fall

if we both give an equal share

we can be an unbeatable pair



What kind of man am I?

I will leave that up to you to decide

Author's Notes/Comments: 

This was written back in June 5, 1997. When I was open to myself and blind to love.

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Marianne Good's picture

This sounds like the man I am in love with.
Take care,
Marianne

Dana Jewel Harris's picture

You know, I think about Sam and my relationship and how easy it is compared to most. Though I've given him some things to deal with (and he likewise), I have come to not only accept what he is and what he isn't, I've also learned to appreciate all that this relationship provides. Your desires for your soulmate at the time (your wife now right?) screams what I hope I am to Sam. But who you were (at the time) screams volumes about how I think most men are. I enjoyed getting to know you a little better from days past and am getting the biggest kick out of learning more of the newer you as each day goes by. Keep on keeping on. I have already joined the fan club.

Like a virgin schoolgirl dreaming of that "big day",
(I don't know where that came from)
Dana Jewel

ultimprv's picture

"The Ultimate Truth"

ultimprv's picture

you never did accept my first challenge
maybe the contractions part threw you off

but after reading this piece
my second challenge is

Ang's picture

One day a man is going to say such things to me and of course that's what every woman's fantasy is and it should come true!

strawberrylagoon's picture

Who you really are, is a talented fine ass black man
I love your works, yeah I know I said it like 80 times
but as a writer, I know that's something you NEVER get
tired of hearing

In this poem you just went over board. Laid it all out
there wasn't no fine print and didn't have to be. After
reading that I feel like I know you and would only like
to get to know you better...this was really really good!

Keep it up RaiLa!!!!!!!I love you man!!!!!!!