Numbness Inside

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Depression

I lay awake a night crying,

I feel numb inside,

So why do I cry?

I break my own heart,

I think about you,

I think about life,

I want to tear skin from bone,

I want my heart to stop hurting,

Tears run down my cheeks,

What is this emptyness inside?

I wait for you,

Nothing,

I reach out to you,

Nothing,

I pour my heart and soul into you,

Nothing,

I ache,

I break,

I cry,

I dont know what to do,

My trust is broken,

My heart is shattered,

I feel numb inside,

I hurt inside,

Im stripped of my pride,

I surrender to you,

I beg for you on my knees,

I want to run and hide,

Im scared of what will happen,

I love you,

I trust you,

I know you will hurt me,

Tears roll down my cheeks,

My skin grows cold,

The air around me changes,

I cant breathe,

I look in your eyes,

They are devoid of life,

Black holes of nothingness,

The tears slow,

My breathing shallow,

There is the lie,

I wrap myself in darkness,

I waited for you,

You hurt me.


 

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Early AM

3am I pondered logistics vs. physical strength to expend energy and make new gials and deadlnes. No demon with empty eyes at my shoulder to rear but decline when I want to go go go. 
.

No way you get my fear.

Death statistics took away

that emotion last year.

.

Stand aside, it is rumored

a sun is rising and you

are blocking my view.

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~S~