Nucleus

 

Once I make it to the summit

it all spins into focus and

I am here, I mean, really 

here—

 

I vanish

 

into in the center of things,

beyond the chiseled cliffs, the

plunging cheers of green, the

blue hills sprayed across

my runaway sky,

 

and no, I can't stop 

the wolves of memory from

gnawing at the edges or 

former versions of myself 

from serving up tray after tray 

of regret, but look, 

life begins now and now and,

a million times, now.

 

Daybreak: another choir 

singing in garnet, 

piped in from higher places—

its fraying backdrop,

its obscene glory

changes me everywhere, and

I am no longer my past, no 

longer those days, pressed and

blistered and unrepentant as

the brassy lake below. 

 

Listen, you've glimpsed it too:

your power, a blur of awakening,

holy vacuum of stillness

finally speaking,

 

not unlike driving through

small towns, here 

and then not here—

only the feeling of something

prim and blooming and maternal

remains on your way to

the next scale model heaven, and

for a moment you know where

you came from 

and who you still are; 

you know 

we are dreamers

in the Creator's dream,

 

ourselves creators,

ourselves the dream.

 

Patricia Joan Jones

 

 

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There are so many "hits me in

There are so many "hits me in the gut" lines in this poem. You are an incredible writer. You have a true talent and I'd give a left ovary to be able to write like that. While yes, I have my own style, I envy your subtle wrenching one. Great write!


"It is a terrible thing to be so open. It is as if my heart put on a face and walked into the world" -- Sylvia Plath.

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I can't thank you enough for

I can't thank you enough for your very supportive and validating words. Coming from a skilled wordcrafter whose style I greatly admire, that means so much. 

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Yes I've been there once or

Yes I've been there once or twice. Awakening... or revelationing yeah, I so did that I created a new word old adveb trick. Slight of hand, blink of an eye but you still saw it crisp and clear, emblazoned in the conciousness, a beyond glorius moment - clarity. Loved every line! Gorgeous! A spectacular show like an unexpected meteor shower showing up the stars. Hugss 


Don't let any one shake your dream stars from your eyes, lest your soul Come away with them! -SS    

"Well, it's love, but not as we know it."

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"Revelationing"  Love it! 

"Revelationing"  Love it!  Thank you again and again for your exquisite review and amazing insights. So moved. 

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I want your collection bound

I see the spirit of this poem fly high. The telescope does not decieve but pressurizes profound existential insight into the clearest water. Reading your poetry truly is a grand priveledge. You turn the ineffable into wise, delicate dances and calm revelations.


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What a brilliant, poetic and

What a brilliant, poetic and visionary review! Trust me, the privilege is mine and I'm deeply moved by your understanding, your perfect overview of my intent. Thank you! 

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Enigmatic Voyage

A jazz tune by Ramsey Lewis - I hear it as I read this poem. There are waves breaking on shores. Or Ad dry ventures in Paradise a 60's tv theme. When heaven  happens, angels will request a reading of this one often, so put it to memory ;D

 


 

 

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I'm deeply honored and

I'm deeply honored and humbled to receive such stunning feedback from an outstanding poet. I could listen to Lewis all day! Thanks for the beautiful pick-me-up. 

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you`re welcome

you`re welcome


ron parrish

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A poem posted by this Poet is

A poem posted by this Poet is always an Event worth noting; in fact, it is a double event---both the posting of the individual poem, and the expansion of her collection of greatess. 

   In a book of essays (on Wallace Stevens' poetry) entitled Words Written Out Of Desire, the superb critic and explicator, Helen Vendler, has suggested that Wallace Stevens always situated the point, or crux, or main subject a poem in its center.  I believe that this also applies to the poem Patricia has just posted (and I think that most of the centers of gravity, as I have called them, are similarly placed).  This poem's center of gravity is the stanza that beings with "Listen. you've glimpsed it too."  This stanza is discloses not only the poem's process, but the fact that are overhearing a conversation---she is directly addressing the reader, in a conversationl tone, and admitting the reader to the internal processes of her poem and, by implication (I think), the internal processes of her entire collection. 

    I believe Vendler also pointed out that, in Stevens' poems, a set of internal connections and references brought the poems into relationships with each other---and this, also, is a feature of Patriciajj's poems.  Stars create light and warmth by the fusion of atomic particles:  a controlled collision of elements within their cores.  A star is a body of plasma which retains its shape and integral form through the perfect balance of two forces:  the downward pressure of gravity, and the upward pressure of the energy released by the fusion.  Patricia's poems also operate in this way, if I may extend the metaphor:  there is a pressure of what the Poet's need to express an emotion, or an insight, or an opinion; and there is the opposite pressure of the energy released by the fusion of each poem's internal elements, and from this fusion the poem's vivifying light and warmth proceed.  I am not saying this to simply praise the Poet, because, frankly, her greatness is so far above my praise and does not need it.  I am saying this, and all the other comments I have made or will make on her poems, to two sets of readers:  those members and guests of postpoems who read this, and those graduate students (in a future I may not live to see) who will be diligently studying her poetry (and some with an eye to writing graduate dissertations).  Reader, do not smirk:  this is going to happen; and, since I will not be an active part of it, I want to leave my mark, like Robert Peary's steel spike in the North Pole Ice; so here, just to be whimsical, it is:  [*/+/].  There will be more precise observations and greater insights than I can provide; but I will have been here "afore 'em," to paraphrase an old Scottish song.

  Is it an event, the posting of this poem, or of any of her poems?  Of course it is.  In closing, I shall describe it in a metaphor from the month of July, a month that has been of supreme significance to me, personally, since the early seventies.  Many poets are like people setting off fireworks on the Fourth of July:  sparklers, noise-makers, flashes of light in the local heights just above us.  But Patricia's poems are not like those.  Patricia's poems are like the stars that rise into the sky on the night of the Fourth of July, or any other night; beside which so many other poets'efforts are  flashes in the pan, on the surface, like the glows and glimmers of fireflies, signalling the presence of high summer before they die in the chill of autumn.  Patricia's poems are above, beyond, this.  Like the stars, her poems mark the seasons of our lives and our emotions, but are not affected or limited by those seasons.  It is a privilege to watch this happen, in each of the events of her poems' postings.  It is also a privilege to be able to comment on such greatness as it procedes and constellates itself before our eyes.


Starward

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"Thank you" doesn't do

"Thank you" doesn't do justice to my debt of gratitude for your overwhelming reception of this series that chronicles a deeply personal and transformative journey. 

 

No one has ever analyzed my message with such intricate yet expansive detail and with such prowess that only a true poet can deliver. And I'm beyond gratified that you've pinpointed my vision, process and aspiration with an almost intuitive precision; and if that wasn't enough, you see it through the eyes of wisdom, with metaphors and references that leave me speechless and deeply humbled. 

 

You are a valuable source of insight, motivation and advice, not just to me, but everyone privileged enough to be your friend here on Post Poems. 

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sounds like a spiritual place

sounds like a spiritual place in time


ron parrish

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Thank you for reading and for

Thank you for reading and for your accurate insight. It means so much.