ME THINKS THEE DOTH PROTEST TOO MUCH

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JOURNAL # 41

it is quite natural
to question reactions
when one's gut
sounds the alarm
God himself
gave me this
gut warning system
to guide me after all
throughout the intricate
patterns I must weave
myself around in my life
to trust anything blindly
I was told by an
investigative man
long ago himself
is not a wise course
to follow
figure and recheck
statements given
go where the evidence
takes you
(sound familiar?)
giving credence first
to the facts being
offered
I spoke not on a whim
as thee has so woundedly
implied
I can name five
separate disturbing incidents
even now that have built
over the years in my mind
one thee even candidly confessed
to
and I was unapologetically horrified
I'm not a fan of admitted deceptions
and lies
so when one chooses to openly not
trust me
and demonstrates regularly
that I am but an isolated anomaly
in the fabric of his life
it would be wise to stand back
take stock and promptly question
these points that sting the better sense
greatly
claim the coat of the wounded victim
if you must
but put yourself in my shoes a moment
first
so to look at the things you have
shared with fresh eyes
for is objectivity not your own
bread and butter?
then I dare you if I had done the exact
same things, to reveal if you would blindly
me trust
my gut tells me somehow not
for the trained investigator in you
would dig even deeper
behind the twisting of such tales
and reveal the truth finder in you 's
agenda to root out the lies
from what is real
you are a big, strong man
I have not deceived you
use your God given tools
and sort out the truths
from the fabrications
you being who you are
professionally
should at least admire
my integrity in this matter
not merely be hurt by it
exclusively..............
(Aug. 12, 2012 1209pm)

Author's Notes/Comments: 

An exercising of thorny gut feelings I've had for sometime that was recently pricked by a more recent event..........

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