MY BELOVED SOPHIE'S FINAL MOMENTS

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JOURNAL # 41

Alas, what a new day brings

my heart could not take the not knowing

anymore

so this very morning the local shelter I phoned

my so beloved canine they found laying in the road

unable to get up

a teenage boy called them to come fetch her

so terribly ailing now they stated is she

and in so very much pain the man gently

added

my heart broke a little more upon hearing those

words

for I knew what I would certainly now have to do

A decision had to be made

I took her sister Gracie with me

when I picked her up from the local shelter

and drove he to our local vet

so very reluctantly

In the car, I even got to witness my sweet Sophie

giving her sister Gracie one last kiss in the car

which made me believe she knew her pain was soon

to end

I held  Sophie while for the Vet we waited

telling her over and over again how so very much I loved

her and how so very happy she soon would be

and I asked her when my own time came

for her to run from wherever she was in Heaven

to joyously meet me.

over and over again I kissed her dear elderly head

and told her what a good, good girl she had indeed been

so very much pleasure her furry loving being had given

to me

the doctor was so gentle, his voice so full of care

as he walked us through what to expect

as he painlessly injected her right front paw and

in a matter of moments to heaven she gently went

and this devastating event occurred at 405pm for me

yesterday on April 7, 2014

for 14 years and nearly  2 months God generously gave

me the gift of my Sweet, sweet Sophie

and as I tearfully drove home I thanked him profusely

for the unconditional love he let enter my life

through her rambunctious form as I repeatedly told

my Gracie all would be alright

she was not to worry

for Sophie now eternally watched over us..................

(April 8, 2014 147am)

 

 

 

 

 

Author's Notes/Comments: 

This poem gave me closure. As you can read I had to do a very hard thing the other day and it took a lot out of me emotionally though it was the right thing to do it was also a so very hard thing to do. I comfort myself by knowing Sophie is free and running tirelessly in heaven just like she use to love to do when she was young. That is what makes me smile and knowing my loved ones who have gone before will be there to meet her and play with her.  I truly believe she was a gift from God and though I could have continued to care for her and let her die naturally when they told me at the shelter that she was for sure in a lot of pain then I knew what I had to do. I was not sure before that if she was indeed in pain or not. So when that was directly told to me I knew I had to end her suffering and it was better that  I be with her when it happened. Even though that was so terribly hard on me I knew it was the right thing to do. This poem goes through that painful day's moments one by one. Though I miss seeing my beautiful old girl I'm happy too that she is not hurting anymore and is waiting for me to one day return and be with her.

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and_hera_met_zeus's picture

so sad and yet so beautiful.

so sad and yet so beautiful.  14 years is a full life, you were truly blessed.

palewingedpoetess's picture

Yes I was and am.........

thank you for your kind words..........Sincerely, M.