MY SWEET, SWEET SOPHIE ANNE

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JOURNAL # 41

as sad as it is for me to say

I don't know where you are tonight

you left in the early afternoon

unbeknownst to me at the time

never to return

I pray that you are not in any danger or pain

nor scared, cold, hungry, or alone

perhaps you are already now with God

that is my fondest prayer

for then I will know that you will suffer no more

and exit this cold, harsh world into eternal love

and peace

which is what you fully deserve

as you wait for me to join you

I comfort my heart by imagining you forever

frolicking in the fields of heaven with my

beloved Maggie and Sneezie

I grieve your loss so profoundly

deep within my troubled being

know that my aching heart

holds you with a love so softly tender

framed and cherished photos of you

will forever greet my eyes in every room

of my home that I enter

burdened no more shall you be

with an aging, ailing, failing body

so limited in its function

you are free

and if not then I know soon you very well shall be

forgive me for being impatient with you

many a time I was so very tired and angry

about the puking and the pooping

but know all the while even when so very upset

and frustrated over the things you were doing

I always loved you so very much and forever shall.....

(April 7, 2014 3am)

Author's Notes/Comments:

I wrote this about April 6th 2014 when my beloved 14 plus year old dog Sophie went out to go do her personal doggie business and never came back. She had been ailing for sometime, just typical oldd og ailments and I suspected it was getting near the time she would get so sick that I'd either have to have her put to sleep to keep her from needlessly suffering or one morning I'd find her dead where she slept. I prayed profoundly for the latter cause I didn't think I could bring myself to take her to the vet to have her put down. It hurt to much to imagine that.