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resisting you is futile

I have learned

even when you are nowhere to be found

how disappointingly strange that is

you can not imagine

I fight you in my mind

and damn me if you don't fight back

and return even stronger

longing for you as I do

is such an emotional siphon  

and no action on my part

can ease the grip of your hold

your laughter and intensity

I so miss

while the feel of your eyes upon me

I fear I'll never know

nor experience

the beauty of your tight masculine hug

and crushingly purposeful kiss

as you pull me deeper into your passion

these doubts now war with hope to surface

and I ply both sides of the battle with

endless appeasement

my heart is wrenched and I am torn

so many things I find myself pondering

where you are concerned

How must your eyes appear

when dancing with delight

from witnessing my silliness

how tender and reverent will your touch

be when finally you are united with me

oh how such hurt staggers to burst free

from my heart

as I can not yet share these feelings

fully  with you

as you are some where in the air far far

away from me

unreachable

and until I hear from you

this not knowing anything at all is oh so frightening

to bear such weight beneath this void of despair

I am continually awash in my own scared tears

devastated by the endless waiting.............

(written June 10, 2007 414am)