GUILTY SECRET

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if there really was such a thing as a knight in shining

armor

I think he would greatly resemble Bobby Rhymer

there is a slight smell of dampened disappointment in

the night's surrounding air

it is something of which I and I alone seem solely aware

there is another soul involved I believe but I don't

think he truly cares

this is a brutal fact for me to face

for when he looks at me he only blankly stares

and this 'Guilty Secret' I carry quietly within

with no one else do I share

for there is only so much generosity of spirit

that one individual has in her to spare

if he were to come forward and offer his unguarded

sympathy that I simply could not bare

I would rather take on his disdain and have him laugh

at me or swear

perhaps I would try to apologize for cornering the

lofty lion in his lair

and maybe even hope to be forgiven for placing

the turtle before the hare

but anymore than that I would not even dare

I don't mind being hopeful but first to myself I must

be fair

that is the only way I can get myself from here to there

by standing up for myself and protecting the gift I

have for flair................

( written July 28,1992 pm)












Author's Notes/Comments: 

coming to grips that there will never be a chance with Bobby Rhymer.

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