UNHINDERED

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JOURNAL # 41

please know
without any further fanfare
I confess
in all my damaged brokenness
I loved you truly
and I somehow know
no matter how I argued with
myself to the contrary before
that in all your own damaged
brokenness you loved me as well
that is all I have left to sustain me now
so be at peace my love
be at peace
for deep in my soul
I'm waltzing with you in heaven
never to tire
always to move so elegantly together
in love
free of all this human pain and misunderstanding
mark and twain we have challenged each other
to be
this particular river of life
our ever changing current
beneath these timeless deep still waters
to the naked eye
flows still

still so powerfully
'Unhindered'..............
(April 15, 2015 304pm)

Author's Notes/Comments: 

A clearer look back at a very painful love that deconstructed right before my eyes to the disbelieving point where I finally had to just let go of it in abject mortal hearted defeat. It's taken me such a long time to sort through all that pain and loss. There is no more anger in me now towards such said man just sadness, acceptance of what is and love. I feel my soul has come to a point where a much needed lesson of sorts was finally learned fully. This poem is my letting go of him at last.

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ACCEPTING DEFEAT IS JUST NOT YOUR WAY OF LIFE

i read this deeply moving poem and you made me rethink about earthly love and all the vows and promises. What I felt strange here was that this is not your way of taking life at all. You are the OPTIMIST...remember the SPINE-STEELED WOMAN. I do remember so it is somehow difficult to accept that you have let go of the person you so deeply loved and whom you miss so much. Maybe he is in a situation or faced with a task on account of which he has not been able to communicate with you. Anyway, as I have discovered in the years of the life I have lived, it is mostly the woman who cannot WAIT for her man. Exceptions are of course there but not so many. In another way you appear like a lonely female Robinson Crusoe. Have faith O Poetess Prolifica and never despair of God's mercy. His ways are always mysterious. I find this poem much sadder than other sad poems written by you. You, who give hope to others, writing like this? I cannot come to terms with this. Believe me. So perk up and thank God Almighty for your man might be missing you, in fact more than you are missing him, wherever he is. Do not lose hope for as Scarlett O Hara says in the closing dialogue of the movie, "Gone With The Wind": TOMORROW IS ANOTHER DAY.


Muhammad Naveed Ahmed.

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I'm talking about an old love that has long been over now

This gentleman and I ended it long ago but sometimes the heart brings him to my mind and I'd catch myself in the wonderings of what if but I've finally put that old love to rest and said my peace with God about the way things ended and poetically let that love go. I never once imagined it was over I've known for ages that it's over. I'm not giving up on something that could be just reonciling myself to what long ago ended mutually. I thank you for the lovely words though they were quite misplaced in content. Good to see you out and about and among the living again. Thank you for your comments, Sincerely, you know who......... laughs!