Smiling

I hate smiling, when I feel like crying 

I hate cracking a joke, when i feel like I'm dying.

 

And I'm the first one to laugh,

Just to hide the way I'm feeling

And I create a mask-

So noone knows who they are seeing.

 

Sometimes I feel like, if I carry on.

I might one day just break down

And I am simply waiting on a time now

To scream when there's nooone around.

 

I hate smiling...when I feel like crying.

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Carcass's picture

Awesome start to this poem,

Awesome start to this poem, really solid and relatable and just down my alley.

PoeticFinesse's picture

Amazing

This is so great and I can definitely relate to this. Looking forward to reading more by you!

allets's picture

You Are Not Alone

At one time or other, everyone feels like that - masked, faking the opposite - not able to say what is actually on your mind/emotion - I just don't smile - if I don't wanna. ~allets~