conversation with God

Me: Hey

God: Hi. (short pause) I've been waiting for you.

Me: I know. I'm sorry. It's just that I've been struggling with alot of doubt lately.

God: I wish that you wouldn't be afraid to come to me when you are struggling. I love you. It's what I'm here for. Think of me as your own personal therapist. You don't have to schedule an appointment and you don't have to pay.

Me: Thanks, God. I know that but it's still hard. I still hesitate.

God: Tell me about your doubting.

Me: Well see... it's like this... I doubt that You're going to answer my prayers... I doubt that You even love me at times. I often think that You're just out to get me and that You want to punish me or discipline me or whatever. Sometimes I feel like I'm not good enough for You, like I'm a failure. It makes me angry at You sometimes.

God: What does my word say?

Me: Your word? It says that if You are for me, who can be against me. (Romans 8:31) And it says that Your love for me is unconditional... it doesn't depend on what I do or don't do.

God: What else does it say?

Me: It says that I'm not a failure... that I'm more than a conqueror in Christ. (Romans 8:37)

God: What does my word say about doubting?

Me: It says to stop doubting and believe...(John 20:27) It also says those who doubt are like a wave of the sea... blown and tossed by the wind...and that those who doubt should not expect answered prayers. (James 1:6&7)

God: Why do you think that is?

Me: I'm not sure. Why would you not answer our prayers just because we have doubts?

God: Faith

Me: Faith?

God: Yes. I want you to have faith in me. Believe that I am good and that I love you and that I want the best for you. You know the verse, Jeremiah 29:11. My plans for you are not to harm you, but to prosper you, to give you hope and a future. When you have faith that I'm going to answer your prayers, according to my perfect will... it pleases me.

Me: Hebrew 11:6; without faith it is impossible to please You. I think I'm getting it.

God: Right. Exactly. When you don't have faith in me, it hurts me. I feel sad too.

Me: I'm sorry Lord. Please forgive me, for my lack of faith. Help me to trust You.

God: Why do you think you doubt so much?

Me: Probably because I'm afraid of getting my hopes up. I'm afraid You'll disappoint me or let me down. It's probably because I've had so many people in my life promise me something only to break their promises.

God: Do you think I will break my promises to you?

Me: No, God. I know Your word says that Your promises are true and eternal. You won't break them.

God: So believe that and trust me. Don't be afraid to get your hopes up with me. The world is mine and everything in it. I have the power to give you everything you need or desire. The thing is, as you already know, I want the very best for you. And there may be things in your life that you desperately crave... but I know that there is something even better for you than that. If you will only trust me and not doubt, I will give you things you never dreamed of. And you won't be settling for less. But you have to be willing to put your own will aside.

Me: I know God. Thank You... I do trust You, help me to trust You more.

God: I will, and I am. Now go to sleep and get your rest. I'll keep you in my arms until the morning, when you wake.

Author's Notes/Comments: 

A conversation I had with God one night... I've always written down in my journal prayers to God or things that God had spoken to me about or put on my heart, but never thought of writing down an actual word for word conversation with God, but this time I did...

This converstion serves as a reminder, that I need to put my hope and trust in God and in His word and notmy feelings or circumstances, because feelings change and circumstances change... but God will never change. (Malachi 3:6 & Hebrews 13:8)

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bluecollarclay's picture

lol, looking through some of the comments on this page, some people don't get it... I'm realy glad you wrote down this actual conversation. I know exactly where you're coming from and God tells me the same things. I love our Lord and He loves us. Thanks for posting this... helps a brother not to feel lonely :). I'll leave you with Romans 8:38,39 "For I am persuaded that neither death, nor life, nor angels, nor principalities, nor powers, nor things present, nor things to come, not height, nor depth, nor any other creature shall be able to seperate us from the love of God which is in Christ Jesus, our Lord"

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Devon Flannery's picture

This is beond awsome, I'm glad I read this.

catherine's picture

wow. i'm so happy i stumbled upon this.

poetvg's picture

i loved it :*)
bravo cant
wait to read more

Meryllia Luavasa's picture

This is a beautiful peace, it reminds me of me sometimes. Never would i ever thought that a piece could touch, yours did and i thank you for that. God is great!!!

Ruth Lovejoy's picture

excellent piece really enjoyed this...

justme4him's picture

Naomi, this is awesome, this writing is really taken from the Source!!!! you are really blessed to write such a strong message from GOD.
this is what i am struggling with, doubt, it's an everyday fight, to keep my faith and mind anchored in Him. somewhat similar is a poem i wrote, reconciliation, it's about his calling me back, i invite you to look it up.
you are indeed His singer.
stay blessed,

justme4him's picture

Hey Naomi, long time no see. I read this piece of yours.It's awesome, God really spoke to me thru it. Thank you for sharring it. your long time friend, Sabina

fighter4life's picture

This is one of the best and inspiring pieces I have ever read, I love this.

Verity Black's picture

Wow, that has to be THE most inspiring religious piece I have ever read. Even if it isn't neccesarily a poem, if U came up with this, my dear, you are talented!