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I know what I've done.

But what can I do?

Went from two to one,

And now I've lost You.

It used to be fun,

Love used to be true...

But now I've destroyed it,

I don't know the way through.

Alcoholism.

Perfectionism.

I couldn't see through the fucking prism.

Now it's too late,

Could've seen it before,

But now I'm what I hate...

And my soul's on the floor.

Slithered evil like a snake,

And now I'm crushed deep to the core.

Oh Dear, Lovely Wife, It's you I adore.

Dear God why can't I go back to before.

I'd let humans be humans,

And friends be friends,

I'd stop my accusing, abusing, bruising...

Now I'll never know if I have room for amends.

Will Humpty ever be solid again?

Will I ever be able to be a good friend?

Can I ever replace all the hurt that I've sent...

With the Love I truly feel Can I be a good man?

So many questions,

But I've no answer.

I'm dying inside from a new strand of cancer.

This is self-inflicted heartbreak and it doesn't matter,

Because it's my Wifes' heart that I've truly shattered.

Her decision to leave left me worn and tattered,

But what do I deserve as the fucking Mad Hatter.

I'm controlling my thoughts, my feelings, my wonder...

But I can't control the emptiness from deep down under.

Rain and sleet, lightning and thunder.

Storm's blowing in this heart,

No sun or spring or summer.

All I can say is I'm changing my ways,

And oh my Lord do I love Her.

And maybe if I do what I say,

She'll accept me as an old-school new-comer.

But you think I don't wonder.

Oh God how I love Her.

What have I done?

I've lost my own Lover.

I wish I had known,

Knew I'd create this.

I don't know what'll happen but I do know this:

This is my letter of flat out acceptance.