And I Brace Myself


You want me to
write you a lighthearted love poem

I can't.

I am in blind torture
my veins are clumpy with
a certain type of sadness
Clots of
doubt and I am terrified they
will break away
reach home


Do you see what I did there?


I used medical analogy to try and metaphorically
explain how serious my condition is
(Read about strokes) You'll get it then for sure


Or you won't.


The point is:


I can't write crappy joyful love poems
It doesn't matter how much I love you
or how perfect your fingertips feel
or how our lips melt into one another like
ice and fire


Because love makes me happy baby
and we all know happiness can be a
fragile thing
it can be a dangling string


It can burn.

be cut.

chewed off

left out in the weather too long
frayed away
swallowed by a sweet talker
but I am too far down inside you to be
pulled out unharmed


and yes

sometimes I smile about that
other times I see the future and I brace myself


That string

of happiness
is going to wrap around me so tightly

that one day it will snap me in half

like a small branch
under an army of feet
while no one was looking


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running_with_rabbits's picture

<3 I love the way you get the

<3 I love the way you get the complexity of emotions! also these lines


"I am too far down inside you to be

pulled out unharmed"

GAH those lines!

Much Love


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And I Was Hoping

for mushy sentiment. Okay reality is better. Glad you are posting ~(:D)-  ~allets~




life_used_to_be_lifelike's picture

Mushy sentiment never was my

Mushy sentiment never was my cup of tea Haha. I usually just try and "go for the throat" with my stuff. thanks for stopping by lady A :) 



"It is a terrible thing to be so open. It is as if my heart put on a face and walked into the world" -- Sylvia Plath.