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Be stronger than my thoughts, I have to.
Have the courage not to call things off, yeah that too.
Convince myself that thoughts are thoughts and thoughts alone, not some crazy shit. Am I dying? NO! In reality I know this, yet I'm still regressing back to a place where I was all alone.
I can't go back there, not again, please no! Back to suicide notes and ducking under closed windows.
How can a little pill fix so much? And why can't I make myself take it?
Paranoia is a bitch and this isn't just a bad mood, I can't shake it.
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I do not know my dx, but examining fears, I am paranoid about very little actually. I have fears, but they do not stop me from anything, unless it becomes a gun, then fear and paranoia may be warranted. I move free - the only way, without judgment of my actions. I made them, they must be perfect :D slc