true feelings of be confused

My thoughts seems to be running a thousands mph,

Flying in and out of my head

Before I can catch up to what they mean,

and how i truly feel.



The way you touch my skin and hold me close,

Got me feeling thinks i never felt before.

I love it when you hold me close

And plant little wet kisses on the back of my neck.

The way you kiss the top of my forehead...



When we're just cuddling

and no matter what way my body moves,

your body moves in sync with mine,

and you never let go.



Whenever we hang put i seem to be having so much fun,

time flies by trying to figure out were it all begun.

you make me feel like a kid again.

Not giving a care in the world to what other people might think.



For so long i have been totally and completely scared of the word love,

Never really knowing what it really meant

caring?

trusting?

Liking another person?

Being there for one another?

I wasn't quit sure; all i knew was that is was scary.



The words just seemed to slip out my mouth

when it came to my friends

when they would do something sillu

and in my head

i was like

"Oh i love that about them!"

then the words would slip out my mouth.

then it happened with you, too.

but you said it back

it scared the "ba-gee-bees" out of me

but i ignored it and went on about my way

but you said it again, and it felt good, but i couldn't say it back

my body went numb and tingly.

Then the back of my throat went hard and nothing would come out of my mouth



i was scared and i shared that with you

you haven't said it since.

sometimes i wish i could hear those words again,

and know that they are true.



There are times when i feel as if they are true,

just words unspoken but yet so true.

by the way you act and the things you do.

Others feel like you just trying to get in my pants.

man its got me all confused



But yet we talk about

other things like its nothing a

nd yet we both want to do it.

that's very apparent



when things seem to get hot and heavy

the moment seems so right



but yet not right at all

how can we do these things

if there's nothing behind it.

nothing but hormones running wild

not being able to see what's truly behind it all.

whether it was suppose to be this way.

i mean are we to young

to be able to comprehend the meaning behind what we feel

what it means to really love someone.



And if we do,

and i give it to you,

would you realize that this is a gift to you

That i'm giving a piece of me to you

that i can never get back

    

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a.griffiths57's picture

    A very intense but

 

 

A very intense but thoughtfull poem. I think your right to question your emotions and relaization that responsibilties goes with love. Your poem is expressed very well; an invoking read, impressed by your mature thinking and questions.


 

 

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