Nothing

With every sound I hope that it is you
With every breath I pray for something new
With every moment I lose my faith in love
With every thought I feel you shove
With every tear the hole in my heart grows
And with every second no one knows...

What it is like to feel like nothing
To be the gum on the bottom of your shoe
To be the one thing you regret
And the one thing that you will never lose

After every fight spent crying
After every night you spent lying
After ever promise you have broken
After every lie you have spoken
After every time they left you alone
And every night I am on that phone...

When everyone else is gone
I still help you back up
And you just let me fall
Like I mean nothing to you

Author's Notes/Comments: 

I never knew what it was really like to feel like you mean nothing to the only person in your life that means a damn thing to you. I have never felt this much pain in my life, I feel like someone ripped my heart out and left me here to bleed. I don't know how to cope and my own apathy is eating me from the inside out. Is it so wrong to want to feel like you exist to someone when they tell you that you do?

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