I Can't Pretend

Ok, so maybe I was wrong

I never was very strong

I can't pretend



You know I think this is true

This love I share with you

But when I leave, what will we do?

I can't pretend



I can't pretend that these promises and poems

Were all they made out to be

That they were true...I guess I lied

So when I said I'd love you forever

Maybe that's a year, or maybe never

It's too hard to comprehend

And I cannot pretend



I guess I'll be leaving here in June

A month that we know will come too soon

I'll fade away

I can't pretend



I'm gone for more than a year or two

No reason to come back except for you

But then again...

I can't pretend



So when I make up my mind

That this life we are living is wasting time

I hope you understand

That this was never in the plan

And when I tell you I am sorry, but I am true

That these feelings I felt for you

We temporary...

I cannot pretend



It's about time I get out of this town

It's about time I get away, start my life in a higher place

Where I can do everything I ever dreamed of...

And to come back here again

Is sounding more absurd

I can't pretend



This isn't final yet

It's not set in stone

After tomorrow comes I guess I'll know the truth

I'll know where we are going

And about the new chapter in my life

I hope you know I'll miss you

But we both have out own lives

I can't pretend



That there memories will never fade

I can't pretend

That I will still see you again

I can't pretend

That I know the facts about the future



All I know is that I might not be around

You might not see me around here,

In June I might be gone forever

I can't pretend

Author's Notes/Comments: 

I put this one in "Reality".  The whole theme of this poem isn't final...but after tomorrow it might as well be...and I can't pretend that things wont change at all.

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Christine Smith's picture

okay, i cant pretend-this made me cry. this is the most beautiful poem ever because of one thing: truth. its so freak truthful, you just cant know everything and sometimes things happen that werent meant to and they make you out to be a liar. i just hope you dont regret joel cuz regret is bad...just be happy, thats all i want for you. im sure that she will realize it wasnt meant to be if it doesnt work out...i did...either way dont stress over if you need me call, im, text, whatever, im here. and i'm going through/gone through similar situations...i love you to death (as a best friends and as you being my mentor) so im here bud, thanks for this poem...although not for me, you touched me with it.