"My Jester"

I just want to be happy

For just once in my life.

Being content just to be

Without all this strife.



But memories are dreams

And this life just aint real.

Im unraveling the seams

And turning down this deal.



I have to cross my eyes

Just to see straight.

I have to tell lies.

For truth, its my fate.



A jester I may be

In a court of crowns.

Painted faces, I cant see

Do they smile or frown?



I ask myself yet again

Am I trapped in hell?

Have I finally reached my end?

Did I give my soul to sell?



But this jesters done her part

And shes passing down the hat.

Im off to a fresh start

And Im finished with alla that.



Im done with masquerades

And the jokes just are good.

Its time for my jester to fade

Back to darkness if it could.



Good-bye beloved clown

My jester you have to go.

Maybe in a court of crowns

Ill pull you back for one last show.



But until that comes to be

In the shadows you must stay.

Seperate lives now we're free

Until I seek you out another day.

Author's Notes/Comments: 

Has the last 17-18years of my life consisted of me being this Jester? Yah it has...and this is the poem to prove that all of that is done with! Goodbye my beloved Jester...I have the control now...-JM

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