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The words poured
Words poured from my mouth though I never set them free
I could not catch them as they sprang forth jumbled and misspoken
Fragmented thoughts expressed through a fog of anger and confusion
A damaged child feeling chastised and set aside
She was sent away crying....brokenhearted
Tears for breakfast and hurt feelings for the day
I cried aloud attempting to clarify myelf
It only sounded sad and frantic
Those angry words unretrievable
The truth of the words that I spoke with anger
Eluded her, confounded her and hurt her
The shadow of my own fear spread out before me
Engulfed in a haze unable to see clearly....the feelings of flight and fight in conflict
Overwhelmed....I had lost myself once more and fallen down hitting hard
Upon the frozen ground of regret and self doubt
Still I could see it all around me
That heartless anger that had stabbed outward
It raised an awful chasm
Between love and understanding
I sat there in a stupor
Upon the throne that I had built of angry feelings
Sorrow and regret filled my mind
I could not abide my actions and I was distraught at the thought of my childs cofusion and dismay
Choking on my heart, I fell to the floor the room turning red
There air became thick and heavy, hard to breathe
I felt faint and heavy....trapped
Nothing good could be found when I looked at myself
All I was able to do was stand there and bleed....my feelings pouring from me
I made a sad plea for understanding to the Heavens.... silence followed
There was no acknowledgement nor respite there for me
To be a child feeling unworthy of equality and understanding
A feeling of lonely isolation in their spirit
Downtrodden the heart fragile and angst ridden the both of us looking toward that moment of reconciliation
Forgiveness paramount to me and my love for her my child's desire
I believe venting is a good
I believe venting is a good thing if it doesn't impair a person's ability to do it in a controlled manner. There will always be words said in anger. It depends upon the person. There are some orators who becone very emotional during a speech...however, they have an awareness of their passion and have limits set on the escalation points they reach during a speech. Uncontrolled anger is different.
Your words inspire awareness of this fact, and brings an important aspect of communication of feelings to light. Thank you!!! Please keep writing.
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...and he asked her, "do you write poetry? Because I feel as if I am the ink that flows from your quill."
"No", she replied, "but I have experienced it. "