Pretending.......Just Pretending

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pretending I'm happy as can be

wearing a fake smile on my face

pretending I'm someone thats not me

there is someone else in my place



pretending I'm not hurting at all deep inside

laughing a fake laugh when I feel like crying

hiding every single tear that has been cried

and no one would even guess that I am lying



pretending to be very together

hiding all of the deep pain

telling everyone I feel better

when really I'm going insane



pretending I have no problems at all

hiding my heart that is torn apart

never letting anyone see me fall

never letting anyone know of my inner war



pretending that I don't hate myself

pretending that I'm not drowning

hiding the knife I use to cut my flesh

making sure you don't see me frowning

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pamschwetz's picture

I hope that is just a line and that you actually don't cut yourself...life is painful enough sometimes without causing your own pain deliberately...I think we all pretend a lot, we have to...pretend everything is ok when we know it is not or we would all be insane...sometimes it is hard to pretend but sometimes pretending we can fool ourselves into feeling happy....like if we force a smile or laugh,genuine smile or laughter may come..it is worth a try...very well written, makes you think a lot...Pam